Slow Grind

I know I have been absent for some time. It is has been a combination of some serious life readjustments due to health issues, and during the down time caused by that trying to figure out what I can reasonably do and commit to with the podcast project. I still don’t have answers. I’m going much slower than I was before, and I am re-stacking my priorities. My youngest son has been diagnosed with the same genetic disorder I have, that I just found out about for myself. It has been a lot of life readjustments around here. I feel like my whole world has been turned upside down, and I’m focused on supporting my son, as I am sure he is feeling the same and facing this at a much younger age.

There are a lot of things I want to say, either via podcast or via blogging. But I am having a hard time getting from those ideas to a finished, polished end product. I listen to many other podcasts (on all sorts of topics), and most of them are rambling, unedited, unpolished, conversational and seemingly excluding the audience. I don’t want to produce podcasts like that, but I can definitely see the appeal in the vast reduction of time spent editing, researching, writing and recording. Originally I had a partner to do this podcast with, and we were going to talk back and forth. But that didn’t work out for her. I’ve also looked into hiring editors, but this is not a money making venture, and I simply don’t have capital to pay a staff. I’m not trying to present excuses by any means, just thinking out loud and trying to work through the issues here. I’ve had several folks message me and ask if the podcast is still going or coming back. Especially since I dropped off in the middle of a saga.

TL:DR: I’m still here. I’m hoping to somehow come back and produce content again for this podcast and blog. But I don’t yet know how to make that work with my new life situation.

Youtube and such like

I got a new youtube video up: Check it out!

This is a tour of my garden in late September. It takes me a while to record and edit the videos. Still have to manage the day to day life necessities. I love being able to share little bits when I can. I’m working on fitting it in more often, and better managing all of life’s struggles.

My husband has started doing a daily vlog. I was contemplating that also, but I think I will put my efforts into the podcast. I am a little less than two weeks out from the opening of season two. I am having a blast working on the new segments and planning out the interviews and topics for next season. It is a lot of work. The longer the podcast goes on, the more I want to do with it, and hence the more time I put in every week. It really has become a part time job for me, clocking in at least 20 hours a week.

I’ve also hit another milestone in teh interwebs. I got my first dislike on YouTube. It was on my Altered Cigar Box video. And, someone bitched about my podcasts in general. From what I gathered from the post on Reddit, he took one of my rants/topics to mean the opposite of what I was trying to say. Mistaked me for a former Wiccan, and said I sprinkled profanity “willy, nilly” through out my segments to punctuate my points.

I got a good belly laugh out of that. I definitely use profanity to punctuate my points, as I do the rest of the words in my vocabulary. But I don’t do anything “willy, nilly.” For you folks that know me, and have listened to me speak for years, you can get a good laugh out of it too.

Anyways, I am working on the new segments, getting my thoughts on topics in order, and doing more art. It has been a rough summer, health wise. And I did not get done nearly as much as I wanted, especially in the creative pursuits realm. I’ve also got three rooms in the house that are in need of over hauls. Some rearranging, to wall repair, painting, and such like. I’m working on getting better cameras, lighting, and recording equipment to produce better quality videos and podcasts. It is a slow process.

The Compulsion has Finally Won.


Everyone is doing it. There are themed blogs, and random blogs, and blogs about blogging. Why is it that our ego leads us to post our personal thoughts on the world wide web as if someone out there really cares? Are we so voyeuristic that we must pry into the diaries of others to get our jollies off? HELL YES. Errr…. I mean, no, I have noble pursuits for doing this. Sharing my thoughts, my hobbies, and my meaningless ravings anonymously will help me achieve some greater spiritual goal, or something. Oh yes, and a podcast and such like.

Perhaps through the pouring out of my thoughts, inanities, and complaints some poor soul out there, silhouetted by the monitor’s warm glow, will find inner peace or at least a giggle at my expense. So grab your tein and stave, get astride your three legged stool and inhale the vapors of a dying snake and come across the hedge with me. Or you know, however you get there.